zdx Purified

到如今，我都开始怀疑自己到底还会不会写非福音歌曲的乐评了（笑）。今天这首，是来自非著名苦情乐队 Lifehouse 的旧歌一首，First Time，且送给自己。

嗯，苦情？好吧，事情是这样的：Jason生于西方美国，但却曾与东方这边有过一段渊缘——其实是痛苦的回忆。那是在他的童年。在加州出生的Jason，原本该有一个美国男孩的典型童年，但随着父母从美国迁到远东来，便开始了他那段不寻常的童年，他来到日本，再到泰国和新加坡，最后搬到香港去，恶梦便在东方之珠的一个村里开始。Jason回忆说：“那儿的人都讨厌我们，他们认为我们是带来麻烦的巫师巫婆，每天早上都在我们家门口燃放爆竹。”Jason甚至申诉：“他们偷走我家的猫，煮来吃掉！”如此饱受惊怕和没有朋友的生活，他足足过了4年，父母决定搬回美国，才终于结束这场恶梦。

似乎我对兴头上来一下 double snare 的歌完全没有抵抗能力，我就这么瘫软不成形地坐在椅子上，翘着不雅的二郎腿然后，就这么跟着哼了起来。说来奇怪，一天的阴霾似乎一下子无影无踪，欢乐霎地充彻心底，只因我开始愉快地幻想 First Time。

对于手头这份感情，是极难割舍的。尽管不是 First Time，甚至不是 Second Time，好吧… 也不是 Third Time。嗯，常对自己说的一句话是顺其自然，顺势把握就可以了，强求总是两两俱伤。我不想再回忆一两年前的离别，也不想把自己重新置于曾经痛苦黑暗的万劫之中，那里可没有弟弟陪我。

写到这里，乱七八糟一堆，似乎是在给自己打气吧？顺便，另一首，Easier To Be。

We’re both looking for something
We’ve been afraid to find
It’s easier to be broken
It’s easier to hide
Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I’m scared to death
I’m taking a chance letting you inside
I’m feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I’m wrong, I’m feeling right
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time
The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes
Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I’m scared to death
I’m taking a chance letting you inside
I’m feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I’m wrong, I’m feeling right
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time
We’re crashing
Into the unknown
We’re lost in this
But it feels like home
I’m feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I’m wrong, I’m feeling right
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time
Like being in love she said for the first time
Like being in love to feel for the first time